I am putting myself through the worst thing a writer could do to themselves- self-afflicted writer’s block. The desire is there, the ideas are there, but I am overthinking everything and I end up writing nothing. I am criticizing my every thought, feeling, and even the things I do lately. They say we are our own worst critic. Is there a way to fire this critic in my head and hire a new one?
I guess the stress of everyday life is getting to me and the feeling I am going no where doesn’t help. But shouldn’t I use that as fuel to the fire to work harder? I know it’s my own fault for getting in my own way of the pen writing everything I want to say. For some reason the whole please everyone has got stuck in my head. (Probably because of my day job). But the state of mind I should have is that I only have to be happy with what I write and create. Anyone else liking it is a bonus.
I am finding myself getting sidetracked or making myself distracted with other things to do other than write. I honestly never questioned if I wanted to keep writing though. It’s my love and passion. I would enjoy just sitting with a pretty view, a pencil (with an eraser) and paper all day long. I know it’s me in my head putting up the walls so the thoughts can’t completely come through. I know it’s me making the disconnect from my brain to the pen.
Hopefully, I broke some of those walls while writing this. I miss the ideas freely swirling through my head. I miss the feeling that there are not enough hours in the day to write everything I feel needs to be said. I miss writing a book and then getting excited near the end. I miss the me that got trapped behind the walls. I pray it won’t take me long to make them all fall.
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